♥ The Silent Speech ♥

2011-12-25T20:32:00.000-08:00

Christmas is over...
New Year Eve is soon to arrived.

Have you done any shopping to welcome the brand new year 2012.

I still hvn't gotten any new outfit for CNY

but I love to buy myself a Cheong Sam dis year. :P

However i need to drop a few pounds before i could go for shopping =/

hmm will i be able to succeed?

counting down from now i have less than a month to drop those pound T_T

my time is running out...

I have a few more new year resolution for 2012:

1) to spend money more wisely

2) to travel to more countries

3) to be more healthy

4) to sign up for yoga clss/gym

5) open up myself at all challenge ; to defeat all the obstacle i'll face :)

6) Lastly Never Ever Give Up !!!

This is a picture of Xmas Eve Celebration 2012 with my dear Friends <3

May The Joy of Life Continues Till the End of Life. <3

The Month of Xmas

2011-12-12T07:25:00.000-08:00

It's the month of Xmas,

everywhere I go, I see decorations, things on sales, giagetic christmas tree & not to forget
crowds... as it's also the school holidays for kids.

My main concern is that 2011 is ending in no time...
n it seems like this year has gone by so quickly tht i couldn't recognize
what i did or achieve in each of every month =/
all i remember is that times really flies.

Many will say, ''If I could only rewind time''

followed by the line ''Den i would do things differently.''

Well, that's life. The clock does not go anti-clockwise.

& for what ever had happened. I guess that is what helps us learn.

It makes us wiser and stronger.

There are so many times in my life I wish I could rewind and do over.

You know, like those books you can read a hundred times and choose a different ending each time you read it. But this is real, so I have to learned from my mistakes and moved on with my life.

Right now I shall sign up for my New Year Resolution 2012 & Start New. :)

1) Be Happy & Be Grateful.

- this seems pretty simple to say but not everyone manage to do it.

- I'll try my best to take things easy & be more appreciative rather than complaint.

- To always remember that life is short, n there's no repeat for same date.

2) Do Good, help Society.

- Be more alert on things happening around us.

eg: help a grandma cross the road.

or help feed hungry cats/dogs on the street provided i have food on hand. :P

3) Build Up Self-Confidents & Stamina

- Take initiative to learn new things

- Open up to genuine criticism & apply to self-development.

4) To Have A Bigger Heart
- learn to forgive & accept others as they are without expecting them to change.

5) Love My Self More <3
- dun beat urself up by blaming urself for not doing well.
- love yourself for who you r. either improved them or live with it.
- be proud of yourself & pamper urself more often especially if u did well.

--------------------- tht's all i can think of so far.

Hope 2011 Ends Well & 2012 Goes Well (Finger Crossed) it will have Faith !!!

8/8/11 Sunday

2011-08-07T09:39:00.000-07:00

Hello all,
A recent pic of me ^^

as usual I come back once a while to sweep the dust away, hehe that's a habit or perhaps not;
am just pure lazy =/ haha well it's just that I don't wana blog about my daily routine
& if to update my daily routine or rather activities i can do it viaTwitter or Facebook itself
so much more convienient n easy don't you think so?
hehe so when I write here it means something slightly deeper or smtg more than just
pure daily acitivities which involves some brainstorming, actions etc... hehe

so last night I went to party with my usual group of kakis... we could call them
Zoukies ^^
hahaha because they they tend to Zouk-in on a weekly basis... almost haha
not me tho... ever since I Started working + running on shift basis...
my party lifestyle totally cut off like 80%
yeah something like tht... hmm

Well there's a few reason for me to go there,

1) gathering with my frens (as i mentioned i work on shift so my offday is not always on weekends)
2) relax, socialize, dance & release some tension happened everyday be it at work or around us
3) hahaha of cos to meet new ppl. dun get me wrong. I don't mean strangers but frm friend to friend :P
4) refering to pts no3. oright sometimes strangers too ... well i like to meet new ppl, make friends am friendly & easy going person =)
5) hmm... n of cos to DRINK... n get a lil tipsy n have some fun ^.^

that's all about me going to Clubs. hehe what about u? u may share urs too =)

Realizations ('.')

I'll try to put it in points form for easier reading/understanding.

- my really bad habit = SNACKS/SUPPER (>.<") found guilty
- I've got charm, no prblm attracting guys; only the Right guy. T_T
- I have a pretty low level of self-awareness
(repeat mistakes again and again)
> I need to take Step by step / one step at one time to slowly improve
- Giving myself too much pressure (destructed a fun healthy lifestyle tht I should be having)
-need to start putting plans/thoughts into actions in short = Stop Procastinating

(eg: finally went to swim today) ^.^
- I look fine &amp perhaps gorgeous =) hahaha
(that's what ppl say to me) must learn to acept compliments ^.^
- go with the flow (worry less; happy go lucky)

- enjoy yoga class/swimming/ extreme sports like paintball/rockclimbing/rollar coaster
(mission on my list: Bungy Jumping, Paragliding & even Sky Diving)

- learn to acept critics & place them in positive manner (learn frm experience/pressure)

until then... I'll be back with my positive practise

21/6/11

2011-06-21T06:49:00.003-07:00

Today I woke up feeling a little confused.

I know there's something bothering my mind,
I cannot let it out so specifically what was it about,

but I sure know one thing that it is something related to someone i like.

Anyhow I didn't let myself digging into the issue & just go with the flow with my initial plans.
Which is to celebrate Father's day & Daddy's Birthday 2011.

So, I brought both my parents for Full Body Massage Package (Shoulder + foot) & followed by

a lunch treat (western food) around the area.
I am glad that both of them enjoyed the massage & I'm grateful that I had a good massage
myself as it very much depends on your luck for if u got a good massager to give u the treatment/service.

After all, went for hot yoga for some soul calming session. haha not exactly soul calming
I mean to ease my mind in another word to peace my mind. =)

I have a random habit which is to read my daily horoscope .

Tuesday, Jun 21, 2011

'' Your time is previous, Aries. Don't you agree? As life speeds by,
it's important to make the most of each moment. Even for a fast moving sign like you,
this is an obvious statement. Why, then, are you wasting so much time worrying about
something you cannot control? If you have been caught up in a drama over
which you have little control, why spend your time analysing it? There are so many other good,
productive, happy things you could be doing instead. Tear your mind away from pondering any worst-case
scenarios, and think about the positive possibilities. ''

The statement above is actually very true. The best line that helps me today is that

''Why, are you wasting so much time worrying about
something you cannot control? If you have been caught up in a drama over
which you have little control, why spend your time analysing it? There are so many other good,
productive, happy things you could be doing instead. Tear your mind away from pondering any worst-case
scenarios, and think about the positive possibilities. ''

Lesson learn: focus on the positives & goods Shennie you can do it. =)

21/6/11

2011-06-21T06:49:00.001-07:00

Today I woke up feeling a little confused.

I know there's something bothering my mind,
I cannot let it out so specifically what was it about,

but I sure know one thing that it is something related to someone i like.

Anyhow I didn't let myself digging into the issue & just go with the flow with my initial plans.

I brought both my parents for Full Body Massage Package (Shoulder + foot) & followed by

After all, went for hot yoga for some soul calming session. haha not exactly soul calming
I mean to ease my mind in another word to peace my mind. =)

I have a random habit which is to read my daily horoscope .

Tuesday, Jun 21, 2011

The statement above is actually very true. The best line that helps me today is that

Lesson learn: focus on the positives & goods Shennie you can do it. =)

21/6/11

2011-06-21T06:48:00.000-07:00

Today I woke up feeling a little confused.

I know there's something bothering my mind,
I cannot let it out so specifically what was it about,

but I sure know one thing that it is something related to someone i like.

Anyhow I didn't let myself digging in the issue & just go with the flow with my initial plans.

I brought both my parents for Full Body Massage Package (Shoulder + foot) & followed by

After all, went for hot yoga for some soul calming session. haha not exactly soul calming
I mean to ease my mind in another word to peace my mind. =)

I have a random habit which is to read my daily horoscope .

Tuesday, Jun 21, 2011

The statement above is actually very true. The best line that helps me today is that

Lesson learn: focus on the positives & goods Shennie you can do it. =)

25/5/11

2011-05-25T06:14:00.000-07:00

how should i start ...
alright so today was 1 of the usual off day I get frm the week.
What i did was I went to watch this movie called ''Something Borrowed'' @ TCM.

it's a American Romantic Comedy film.

I would rate 8/10 as i always liked Genre like such. ;)

A relationship between friends, love & career.

Secondly I've always like Kate Hudson & btw Colin Egglesfield is effing HOT !! melt ;P

check him out for yourself :P

I strongly recommend this movie.

Other than that, recently life been doing good minus the workload.

I'm actually trying to take things easy in every possible way...
I don't mean I'm playing a fool or not being serious in what I'm in now...
but I'll just try to remind myself tht sometimes something don't hv to take it too serious
Just go with the flow... n if it goes well... celebrate otherwise just laugh about it n learn from it.

that's all for now.

Have a good day all...I'll be back soon ^^

16/4/11

2011-04-16T00:58:00.000-07:00

forgive & forget, that's what everyone say. It's good advice but it's not very practical. When someone hurt us, we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right. Without forgiveness, old scores never settle, old wounds never heal, and the most we can hope

for is that someday we'll be lucky enuf to forget.

The Past Cannot be Changed, forgotten, edited, or erased.
It can only be accepted.

However,

Past is not for cursing,

Future is not for wasting;

Past is for learning,

Future is for Implementing.

Fear in life

2011-04-09T03:23:00.001-07:00

Decide on your own path.

I'm living in fear... I'm having too many doubts in life...
there's too many fears in my life ... that I know I should be letting go.
This is really bad for me.

“We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the life that is waiting for us.” – Joseph Campbell

“There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind. But keep in mind that letting go isn’t the end of the world; it’s the beginning of a new life.” – Anonymous

Quotes to making Changes in life

2011-04-08T22:00:00.000-07:00

''Life isn’t always about what you want. What you want isn’t always what you need. Stay in order, needs before wants!''
'- Maria Robinson quotes

“I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.” - Maya Angelou quotes

“Sometimes it's the smallest decisions that can change your life forever.” -Keri Russell quotes Sometimes, you have to let go of the life you have in order to get the life you want. Stay strong and keep your head high! All these quotes are so simple to understand but so difficult to practise. However I shall keep trying every now n den. Cheers :) good day to all of you

4/4/11

2011-04-03T21:19:00.000-07:00

Good Morning L-O-V-E Songs ;)

I haven't exactly created any playlist in my lappie/bb fon

but somehow playing random love songs with good lyrics

during the day does help brighten up the BLues. =P

Let me share one with you.

1. Selfish - N-sync

P.S: HAPPY BIRHTDAY BROTHER :)

20/3/11

2011-03-20T11:07:00.000-07:00

I feel like sharing these quotes:

Don't worry about people in your past,
There's a reason why they didn't make it to your future.

The Happiness of your life
depends upon the quality of your thoughts.

“To improve is to change, to be perfect is to change often. ~ Winston Churchill”

Just because something isn't happening for you right now,

doesn't mean that it will never happen.

“The happiest people do not necessarily have the best things. They simply appreciate the things they have.”

When you’re sitting there thinking.. “Should I or shouldn’t I?” Take a chance if it feels right. You could regret it, but at the same time you could also regret not taking the opportunity when it was right there in front of you.

There is a place

you can touch a women
that will drive her crazy
Her heart. - Milk Honey

Stop looking for someone to love,
open your eyes because that person is right in front of you.

When you can't remember why u're hurt,
that's when your healed :)

19/3/11

2011-03-19T05:23:00.000-07:00

Oopsy last nite was supposed to update my day3 at gym
but den was too tired after outing so now let me update u.
Day 3
the work out got smoother & I manage to do 3set each for
ABDUCTOR & ADDUCTOR

now I feel the pinch each time I walk. =P

Day4
Start my work out with 15min Cardio
& went to RPM Class.
Wanted to go swimming too
but just when I jump into the pool...the rain start to pour
& it's written in the Rules & Regulation for not allowed to swim during rain
So I ended my work out & went for Steam Bath.

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17/3/11

2011-03-17T07:37:00.000-07:00

Day2 -

I am so glad that I make it to gym at last.
I almost gave myself an excuse for not hitting the gym due to fatigue.

Thank goodness I forced my lazy bones & put on my sport shoe without further thinking
I drove myself to the gym. so people give me some applause :D

Anyway today wasn't any hardcore...
I started with a 20min cardio wave to kick start my lazy engines
& den followed by doing some simple stretching exercise.

Den I ended it with another 15min of cardio excite to stimulate my tiredness.

went for a 5min Steam bath due to forget to bring a small towel to cover the face.
as it feels suffocating staying in tht kind of temperature.
However lesson learn: I already chuck it in my gym beg the moment I got home. :D

tht's about it... we continue tmr ;)

good night all ~ it's Astro time ^^

16/3/11

2011-03-16T03:39:00.000-07:00

I want to blog about today.
I've been thinking about why does my weight fluctuate
is it because of my daily eating habit or because of my habitual life like
sleeping late often causes me hunger & wanting to snack.

I finally took my first foot step out towards building a healthier lifestyle.
I did tiny research on fitness gym center & went to survey it.

Personally I'm a person who gain weight efficiently but lose weight like a turtle

Sad to say but good that i know. So finally now I am wanting to do something about it.

I've never been a size 10 my whole life. but as years goes by without concerning my intakes of
food, beverage, lifestyle, emotional etc...I am now T__T

food- I often take unhealthy food which includes a lot of snacks, basically most of them are not solid meals.
beverage- I take beers, juices, soft drinks, sweet overdose drinks like Starbucks etc...LACK of WATER
Lifestyle- staying up late causing stomach to feel hungry which cause a big amount of food/snack is consume at a wrong time/hour.
emotional- when tryin out new clothes often feel/look fat which cause mood to depressed & forgetting about being healthy again.

Today I stepped in True Fitness not feeling ashamed spoke to a consultant about wanting to
lose weight & healthier.
Wanting to find out about ways to a healthier lifestyle.
Of cos I personally know it very well that in order to reach my objective it would/might
take a long time in a slow progress that's y I am putting myself into a test.

Before putting myself into a waste of commitment fee.
I am given a 7days Free trial period to hit the gym.
My current challenge would be to fully utilize this 7days in gym.
If I were to succeed through this 7days den i will make an commitment to sign up.
However, if I failed even 1day within dis 7days for not hitting the gym for what so ever reason
I shall not allow myself to sign up, because this would be a waste after all due to
no consistency principal.

As much as I know how fickle minded I am. I would have to deal with it this time by
proving to myself & body that I would really want a change in my body/life.

First I had to adjust my way of thinking. We all have choices to make.
I wanted to look good so I have to chose to give up for sweet snacks & junk.

It is easier said den done. So first I would cut back as habit need to be replaced.

Plan no1.

Eat 3 solid meals a day to reduce a desire to snack.

Plan no2.

If cravings comes to attack strongly, try to select a not-so-fat snacks like sunflower seeds or
corn in cup for instance instead of peanuts or potatoes chips!

Plan no3.

allow yourself a treats however with LIMITS.
Always remember to CONTROL, CUT BACK & CORRECT my way of thinking. :)

Plan no4.

Keep myself occupied. As it's proven by my own acknowledgment.

The busier I get the lesser time i think about food. Also to rmb to stick to the
3 solid meals a day & healthy in between snacks to not caused eating binge to attack.

VERY IMPORTANT TO KEEP THINKING ABOUT YOUR GOAL.

Plan no5.
Do not take this as a Diet. This is just an adjustment towards a healthier & fabulous lifestyle. =)

Till then, I will share with you my experience of dis 7days in gym.

Today I considered it the first day.
my work out of the day is focus on cardio as I would want to improve my stamina.

6more days to go... Fighting !!!

Will it be a dream to look like this?

My Goal & My Inspiration !!!

The Month I Was born

2011-02-27T01:52:00.000-08:00

The long awaited month ~ March is finally here.

I couldn't express just how I felt because this month will be a special month for me.
there's so many thing I just want to do in this month.
I wanna record/capture every single incident tht is going to happen in this month.
There's so many things in life that I want to achieve so badly...but I have no guts to do it just yet.
or should i said i am still not so sure how should I go about it.
This is includes, career, life, love, relationship, friendship, health & etc...

I wanna choose life, love, food, friends, job...
I want to take control of myself...especially my emotions.
it's been pretty upsetting especially during those silent night where
I have no one to go to or speak to...about just how i am...
sometimes thinking about all of these made me tear. sometimes I cry myself to bed.
waking up the next morning...not feeling any better but keeping those bitter blue feeling within self.

anyhow, I will try my very very best to make it a good Month (:

~ finger crossed ~

shall update when the mood is better

till then,

have a good day all =)

A few awesome feelings 11/2/2011

2011-02-11T23:01:00.000-08:00

Awesome Feeling no#1:
woke up dis morning feeling nice not having myself clean up for work
but laze around on bed for any amount of hours i like without needing to set on snooze
setting on my fon =D

A.F no#2:

posted pictures I've took yesterday with my colleagues
& we all look pretty nice (:

A.F no#3:

Went downstairs & had yummy Siew Mai + Char Siu Bao :))

A.F no#4:

Re-Read How Xia Xue & Mike's love story started filled me up with hope ♥ hahaha

A.F#5:

I think I look fine even thou I might look flabby to others :P
Cheeee sin....laughing at herself

Other extra awesome feelings should be credited to my beloved puppy Whisky ♥

30/1/11

2011-01-30T03:50:00.000-08:00

Attention All.

Woke up this morning feeling extremely exhausted.
as if my whole body doesn't not belong to me anymore.
I can barely feel my arms & legs.

From now onwards until March,
i am forbidding myself from consuming of any amount of alchol.

This is officially a 1month No-Alcohol Period.
So sorry buddies... for the time being we may cheers juice or water (:

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Not any typical Sunday for me.

I arrived home near 11am frm Debbie's home.
took a hot shower & short nap
den head out with Ah Mah, Mummy, Sister & brother
for lunch at Sushi Tei & Catch Great Day with all of them.

This movie gain me some insight of how to show more tender loving care
towards family in general.
this show definitely reminds me of how should i improve of my behaviour.
Now onwards,

Granny, daddy & mummy...
for any favour u guys need frm me
pls do not hesitate to ask me provided
my time & capability permits me to help u out I will for sure do for you (:

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1st day of Period... tummy cramp a lil
bloated tummy
energy level super low.
mood is neutral.
appetide increase =X

besides all these.... everything's pretty mundane.

The End.

28/1/11

2011-01-27T21:11:00.000-08:00

I like how everyone seems so cheerful on their FB status Today.
not because today is any special day for them; but the fact that today's FRIDAY. everyone's happy(:
accept for me...it's any other day because I work on shift it does not mean I get weekends off
so it's ordinary Friday to me.

On the other hand,
I hate the fact that I don't keep any of my new year resolution.
I fail every single bit.
How should I go about it?
It seems like the resolution tht i pre-set for 2011
was easily forget on the every next day. =/

Now,
CNY is just few days apart...
could I start over again with my new year resolution or
instead call it ''CNY resolution.''

I shall start over again with my CNY resolution.
This time I should track on my progress to stay on track. (:

If anyone of you has totally run out of steam by now, don't despair.
Start over again! There's no reason you can't make a "New Year's resolution" any time of year.

Let's set up our New Year Resolution once again & work out a way to sustain our goals. ^^
We all can do it!

To Accomplish Daily List:
1) I promise to eat better this year.*
2) Get more beauty sleep.
3) To be more self aware.*

This includes knowing:

what you want in your life*

your strengths and weaknesses*

what motivates you and makes you happy*

what you want to change about yourself or about your life*

your achievements so far

how you relate to others

you need to improve as a person*

your most important beliefs and values

how you see yourself as a person

most importantly to help you build up ur self esteem.

HapPy Chinese New Year All :D

25/1/11

2011-01-25T07:29:00.000-08:00

That night u were my perfect nightmare
But if its from you I dont mind hurting.
darn you such a teaser.

Tonight, I can't seem to fall asleep without thinking of you!

oh boy, I miss you !

This is ♥

2011-01-23T03:54:00.000-08:00

this year Hot Hunk & cute doggies will make a good year ♥

23/1/11

2011-01-23T03:36:00.000-08:00

I feel good...I knew that I would...
I feel good, I knew that I would....
so good...so good, I got you.

I feel nice, like sugar and spice
I feel nice, like sugar and spice
So nice, so nice, I got you.

I trust my instinct that 2011 Rabbit year will definitely be an awesome year
because I foresee many good activities coming up with all the happy people I'm with (:

I heart ♥ people who treats me right.

♥ sign off,
ur little bitter sweet sugar spice (;

Day Off 18/1/11

2011-01-18T02:43:00.000-08:00

got awaken by the usual alarm clock set in my BB phone. =S
went back to sleep noticing today was my day off.

finally woke up near 1pm ...feels good being able to laze around bed at this hour
as usually I'll be at office working my ass off =(

sat alone reading random magz @ the saloon for nearly 4hours zZz
finally had my hair reborn again (:
it looks abit flat at the moment but it ll look fine after wash
so dun be surprise when u meet my sexay fine hair :P

While i was being bored reading those magz offered by the lady
I went so serious reading every single words in the page... but of cos only those
interesting topic (:

I came across a topic regarding
Would you want a Metro-sexual guy as ur partner or Alpha guy?

before u decide which to pick , let me help u out with a lil definition (:

Metrosexual
described a man who has a high disposable income, lives or works in the city, is overly concerned with his appearance (e.g. vain, loves to shop, gets manicures, laser hair removal, etc.) and who displays attributes stereotypically associated with women or homosexual men (that is, NOT stereotypical male qualities).

Alpha

described a man who take heavy responsible.
always confidence, security and being manly in all aspects
take controls of all the activities; in short a dominant personality.

My Greedy answer would be both ♥♥

As much as i would like my man have the Alpha male characteristic
secretly deep inside my soul would also prefer to have a slightly
metro-sexual personality within it. So that he could be sensitive enuf
to be my best friend (:

Reality:
I often fell for someone I shouldn't
try so hard to fight those feelings, but still failed.
As I fall deeper with each passing day,
I tried to hide it in every possible way.

anyhow Life still needs to go forward !
However I know my life is a repetition. I walk the same road to go to work everyday and do the same work in the company, even eats the same dinner everyday.
Sometimes I still hope the sun could rise up earlier today.
Perhaps it can brighten our gray world.
Is there anybody believe this? I trust everyone will have such an expectation!

Because I do have expectation, call me demanding or what so ever it's your call.
Although we wear the same suit, I still feel we are different.
I hide my worries in front of my families. I share them most with my close friend.
I want to enjoy the happiness in advance, most of us want the same.
But in fact, I have to serve for it.
I have to bet with left life.
I think when we watch TV; we will imagine we find places which belong to us.
Everybody describe their own ideal world.
They believe the world that they imagine is most wonderful.
Sometimes I dun even bother tryin to convince people to look into me.
Because, nobody understands my minds.
People are natural selfish in certain stands,
not all people are willing to listen or try understanding your world.
They just think their world is most beautiful.& not for me to blame.
I dare say WE all look forward love.
But life is so crude, don't get me wrong
I don't mean i need to struggle for living but
when it comes to love... it is not as simple as saying those word ''I Love You''
There are so many things we can not change.
So the best way is to change us.
If we do not change, we will be more sad and depressed.
We will gradually lose the confidence to the life.
Therefore, whether the smile or tears, our life still need to go forward!

Now, I hope i did convince myself a little to look forward for a brighter tomorrow (:

♥ it's so easy to say: ''Let's love life'' ♥

17/1/11

2011-01-17T07:17:00.000-08:00

Office politic?! who needs this?
why am i even involved when i din speak a word?
You may hate me all you want......cos I won't even care.
But why must u judge me & spread rubbish news when you know nuts about me?
Get a life Bitch, and freaking get lost !

(...)

can't wait to leave this place!

September

2011-01-12T08:25:00.000-08:00

~ September ~

How the time passed away, all the trouble that we gave
And all those days we spent out by the lake
Has it all gone to waste? All the promises we made
One by one they vanish just the same

Of all the things I still remember
Summer's never looked the same
The years go by and time just seems to fly
But the memories remain

In the middle of September we'd still play out in the rain
Nothing to lose but everything to gain
Reflecting now on how things could've been
It was worth it in the end

Now it all seems so clear, there's nothing left to fear
So we made our way by finding what was real
Now the days are so long that summer's moving on
We reach for something that's already gone, yeah

Of all the things I still remember
Summer's never looked the same
The years go by and time just seems to fly
But the memories remain

In the middle of September we'd still play out in the rain
Nothing to lose but everything to gain
Reflecting now on how things could've been
It was worth it in the end

We knew we had to leave this town
But we never knew when and we never knew how
We would end up here the way we are
Yeah, we knew we had to leave this town
But we never knew when and we never knew how

Of all the things I still remember
Summer's never looked the same
The years go by and time just seems to fly
But the memories remain

In the middle of September we'd still play out in the rain
Nothing to lose but everything to gain
Reflecting now on how things could've been
It was worth it in the end

12/1/11

2011-01-12T07:24:00.000-08:00

favorite line in those songs -

Omg by Usher ~ there's so many ways to love you
Heart Beat by Enrique Iglesias ~ I can feel your heartbeat: he said to me
Just a dream By Nelly ~ I was thinking about you, thinking about me, think about us, open my eyes, it was only just a dream
Grenade by Bruno Mars ~ gave you all i had and you tossed it in the trash

actually i have a whole lot more to share but den I got lazy ... & kinda not in the mood.

I kinda don't know what people expect in me?
my family, my friends, my superior and even myself...
I used to have a very big dream. But now i think i kinda forget that picture in me =/

R'ship ~ taking easy
Friends ~ they come & go
Family ~ not close & may even feel distance at times T__T

Lucky I still have ♥ Whisky ♥

sometimes when i just look at those cute pictures of him...

everything is fine again =)

hatred

2011-01-10T23:13:00.000-08:00

this is what happen when you're working in a Financial Institution.

Everything needs supporting document, in short Proof.

Blah... i hate the fact that just to get the simplest MC, u need to go up
to higher management & require me to write a letter to HR to proof that am sick?
Hence, the MC was already overdue anyway...so why do i hv to go through so much
trouble to justify my absent. Jeez... i will not understand how is this working for me if this
letter did not get approval frm management for the MC I took the other day.
Also, if this case ended up utilizing my AL... i would be so darn pissed & disappointed as
I've already went through all the hassle just to verified myself on an overdue MC.

This better be working for me or else it would only be a wasted of my time & emotions.
.... again what to do,

I solely have no choice but to obey in what ever orders given by authority.

let's pray that everything goes fine & I never need to suffer through another headache just
for a mini case like this.

The End.

8/1/11

2011-01-08T01:13:00.000-08:00

Pictures of you, pictures of me
Hung up on your wall for the world to see
Pictures of you, pictures of me
remind us all of what we could have been

Confess to me every secret moment
every stolen promise you believe
confess to me, all that lies between us
All that lies between you & me.

Picture's the best. They reminds you of all tht special moment u had with people.
But they are also the ones who reminds u of ur past.
which is y it's hard to let go & move on.

~ xoxo ~

6/1/11

2011-01-06T06:50:00.000-08:00

You Just Can't ...

Every night I stay up past 12, past 1, etc. Not because I’m not tired. Not because I want to tweak on these social networking sites. Because I am tired, I want to sleep. But I can’t because my mind runs like crazy. It over thinks, over analyzes things that I don’t want to think about. So I purposely keep myself awake & tire myself out so that when I do finally lie in bed, I fall asleep and my thoughts don’t keep me up.

4/1/11

2011-01-04T06:36:00.000-08:00

Shits happens!

Today was hell @ work.
1) clock in @ 9am... hard phone din work... tho it seems fine.
15min later ... how come no call routing in.... smtg must be wrong.
argh... nanti during KRA time sure gg kena frm tht Women again T__T

2) Open email kena from tht Women again.... wah mood totally spoiled.
3) first call straight away get a super demanding cust... Jeez... tension gila
4) once hard phone is fixed the call non-stop routing in frm the time i clock in all the way til evening
about 4pm oni calls start to slow down...@.@''
5) super duper long jam que at Masjid Jamek station....den finally my turn... touch & go....
error.... wth... gg suey day =(

thank goodness once reach home....can smell the warm fine dinner served on table
which calm my emotion a bit. aft tht shower... finally cool down (:

But also, luckytodayseatbesidemybabe...atleast we get to shout at each other & laugh out loud to distress abit
otherwise reli can chee sin... ((:

hopefully tmr luck will be better.
no i must said definitely better...cos today is HELL !!!

wish me luck ! <3

xoxo

3/1/11

2011-01-03T07:43:00.000-08:00

perhaps I'll remain silent just like my blog Silent Speech. ♥

3/1/11

2011-01-03T07:31:00.000-08:00

Spending hours in thumblr.com searching for a quote that
can match my feeling now... couldn't even concentrate on a hot drama series CHUCK
:(

I Saw a few pictures of you & ur gf being tagged under 1 of ur frens album jus now.
u looked happy & I'm happy for you. like really do.
I hope she's the one for you (:

sometimes even though you tried so hard to erase those memories
you used to had wif some people but you still couldn't do
because that's alrdy been part of you.

Qts: Will I ever forget u?

confused

2011-01-02T00:38:00.000-08:00

Sigh ended up back in here on the same day twice for the record ! >.<''
that's not good on my off day.
girlfriend suggest I shouldn't be home wasting my very limited off day at home.
my thought: i would love to go out if i hv someone special to hang out with now,
or even be home lying n chatting all day; I wouldn't mind at all.unfortunately not found :(

I was chatting all day on my bed with my lappie & playlist turn on
& suddenly i begin to feel depressed about my weight, my condition.
So i went to take a cold shower to see if i feel better after tht.
But all I'm feel now is that I'm clean, fresh & smell good but not feeling any happier still =/
usually i would start stuffing JUNK & CHOCO

to heal the depress situation but i guess those were the ones that make me so Depressed. T__T

BBM beep, msn nudge does keeps me entertaining for awhile only not long enuf to feel happy.
hmmm, call me demanding or wt ever. I am me just sharing my feelings; Hmph!

listening to a series of emo songs makes me even more emo. haha
but nevermind cos emo makes me think, & thinking makes me...whatever.

Positive Thinking: I saw this interesting quote that I can try to relate to.

2011 (;

2011-01-01T22:24:00.000-08:00

2010 has finally come to an END.

Many will ask, how was 2010 to you...

me: I would only say there's many up & down, tho i still think there's more down then ups
but oh well what goes around comes around... so hopefully 2011 will be a good year for me.

New Year Eve - last day of 2010

was indeed a fun one... not because i was working & get to party @ Zouk later after work
but only because I get to spent & celebrate the begining of 2011 with

bunch of fun colleagues (:

Actually I dun hv much to say about it except 2010 i think i drank slightly too much =/
& also involved too many unnecessary emotions. =X

planning on cutting down the alcohol drinks & live a healthier lifestyle (seriously)

hmm oh well... this 2 days I been thinking on New Year Resolution.

A New Year resolution is a commitment that an individual makes to a personal goal, project, or the reforming of a habit.

Speaking of lifestyle changing could sound reli reli difficult. Yes i knew,
especially me myself I know i have many reli bad habits that need to be Change.

will definitely take some times to improves all of them.
But I shall have faith because I reli do want a better & healthier lifestyle in 2011. (:

& also I promise I will start writing more here....
share with all of you my thoughts & life if only you guys are interested to know :P

Last night I broke the chain of my life.
I slept super early @ 1030pm on 01/01/11
how rare & awesome it could be. :P
one of the resolution dis year would also mean get more *beauty sleep* (:

Why i called it 'chain' is because i usually sleep on odd hours like 1am,2am,3am,4am & so on... =/

I been thinking a lot lately like really a lot about my life.
Like what am i doing ? what do i have & all ...
In a happier note, I am always grateful for wat I've given (:
But on the negative side of me; am easily feeling depressed for everything that i think could be better. :(

Hence many random dilemmas is keeping me away from enjoying great, happy, fun life.
I hate myself for that. hmm I need to take note of that to improved on my lifestyle.
hopefully this year I manage to share with everyone on the every last day of 2011
that I had a memorable awesome year *hope*dreams*love*everything*

that's all for now !
Good day all.

Frm Ur Truly Silent Speech ,

Shennie ♥

27/8/2010 :)

2010-08-26T23:32:00.000-07:00

I've got SHORTLISTED (:

What a good news to start my day with,

the feeling is so awesome.

I immediately ran down stair & share the news with both my parents.

Frm their face expression, i can see that they are relieved & happy at the same time.

which make me feel even more greater :)

(in my heart) Don't need to worry ma, your daughter will not disappoint you geh. :P

I promise I'll do a good job this time no matter how tough & stressful it be.

You guys just have to trust me because i need your support to do a better job.

At the same time i understand that i am an adult,

therefore i should also behave like an adult

no more running away from obstacles. I should learn how to face it.

Have more FAITH & TRUST for myself. :)

HAPPY DAY ALL :) ♥

The definition of Wife and Husband

2010-08-25T02:09:00.000-07:00

The True Meaning of WIFE & HUSBAND :)

W: Wonderful
I: Item
F: For
E: Entertainment
(WIFE)

H: Handsome
U: Useful
S: Smart
B: But
A: At
N: Night
D: Dangerous
(HUSBAND)

The Three Lilttle Kittens Story

2010-08-25T01:33:00.000-07:00

1) One big unicorn, strong and free, thought he was happy as he could be. Then three little kittens came around and turned his whole life upside down. They made him laugh, they made him cry. He never should have said goodbye. And now he knows he can never part from those three little kittens that changed his heart.

2)Three little kittens love to play, they had fun in the sun all day.
Then their mother came out and said, “Time for kittens to go to bed.”
Three little kittens started to bawl, “Mommy, we’re not tired at all!”
Their mother smiled and said with a purr, “Fine, but at least you should brush your fur.”

Three little kittens with fur all brushed, said, “We can’t sleep. We feel too rushed!”
Their mother replied with a voice like silk, “Fine, but at least you should drink your milk.”
Three little kittens with milk all gone, rubbed their eyes and started to yawn.
“We can’t sleep. We can’t even try!” Then their mother sang a lullaby.
“Good night, kittens, close your eyes. Sleep in peace until you rise.
Though while you sleep, we are apart… your mommy loves you with all her heart.”

aww i love these stories. It's from The Cartoon 'Despicable Me' =)
If only someone could read to me every night as a bed time story ♥

25/8/2010

2010-08-25T01:21:00.000-07:00

My blog has been constantly abandon for no apparent reason. I hate myself for having such a bad habit. I constantly failed doing anything because I am not persistent at all. I easily get excited for some apparent reason or perhaps it was the 'natural thing' in me that make me do it over and over again. Anyway anyone know anyway to cure this disease within me. Indeed, it's a disease because it's constantly attack without fail. =(

Like for example: I love to eat. I have this very bad habit. I can eat continuously for hours without taking any break not 5minutes. it just goes on n on. I am really afraid i might soon burst like a balloon as my weight have been rising up like no1 biz. It's certainly scaring me, pissing me off but my stupid disease just won't allow me to stop. The craving to eat is massive, it's so strong. it's super duper hard to resist the temptation I created with my lil brain. ''FOOD''

Thirdly, my flu, my period is attacking me. I feel dizzy most of the time, i hv no control over food i consume. I feel very 'mang zhang' at most time. I felt like im going mental. Most probably am most depressed with my weight. I don't feel like hanging out at all. I feel farking fat. But at home it doesn't help me either. So I am really stuck i don't know what should i do to make myself feel better. Perhaps EXERCISE? Yes i know... it might... but then my laziness in me is also attacking me on the same time.

Secondly, I have just resigned from a fresh job i got 3weeks ago. I wouldn't want to explain again on why i decided to quit so bad. In short, it was real bad. So yea, I couldn't take it anymore. Let's end it. Yeah some of you might be thinking that, every job is the same. Small little thing you cannot take it. So foolish of you to quit said Dad. =/ I wanna say dad, not like i can't find any other job. I will definitely for sure and i am trying my very best to look for a job that i like. So pls be patient with me, it take some times. You think i don't feel stress staying at home, waiting for you to question me over n over again when am i going to work ? It's getting so annoying that i feel like running away from you guys do you know that? It's freaking depressing oredi...T_T

I need you now

2010-04-15T22:03:00.000-07:00

Picture perfect memories,
Scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause, I can't fight it any more.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call  but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door.
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk,
And I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Yes I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.
I just need you now.
Oh baby I need you now.


(sorry for the picture; old pic taken year.)

V

2010-02-07T20:27:00.000-08:00

Do you remember?

Remember 14. 02. 2009/ 2008/ etc... ?

probably most of you had a memorable one.

in my memories, I never really had a memorable one.

which mean i never reli actually celebrated VALENTINE day with my other half.

even when I was in a relationship. V'day is like no other day. D:

however, last year was a single Valentine for me.

I had 2 single companion & a group of frens for the day.

it was rather simple, chit chat, fine dine dinner & clubbing.

& I even got V'lentine Chocolates & roses from the singles. :P

This year... how would my Valentine be like?

sad? happy? fun? boring?

in short, memorable or unforgettable. hmm

anyway let's hope for a HAPPY 14th Feb, 2010 dis year.

Motivation in life.

2010-01-30T21:02:00.000-08:00

These are some useful quotes that i copy from the Author Regina Brett.

1. Always choose life.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Make peace with your past, so it won't screw up the present.
4. Everything can change in a blink of eye. (chase activities)
5. Whatever does not kill you really does make you stronger. (take NO, as a gift)
6. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
7.Frame every so called disaster with these words 'in five years, will this matter?'
8. What others think of you is none of your business.
9. Believe in Miracles.
10. Get outside everyday, miracles are waiting everywhere. =)
11. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up, & show up.
12. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
13.If we all throw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

no choice

2010-01-30T20:28:00.000-08:00

decided to start blogging again.

Thou, my life might not be as interesting as a fairy tales
I don't care. & nobody does in fact :P

Dis morning, I was waken up by my stupid Alarm Clock on my fon.
usually my itchy hand, would automatically press on the Snooze button for a min 3times
but this time I'm left with no choice but to wash up myself & prepare to make some
'A-P-P-R-O-A-C-H'

Wth, right? Approach this is never my thing.
I mean not to say that I can't be friendly & just make new frens with Stranger,
but BUT each time when my heart wants to do so,
my mind start showing me the backdoor.
Arghh... I need to be strong in order to battle with my mindset.
i need to fucking destroy this weakness.
I've only got 7days left. >.<" emooo sial...!

I know this is not the right time/moment for me to get emo & all,
& no matter wat I still have to do it.

(breath in breath out)

I stunned for 2 sec,
followed by pulling a big smile on my face like dis ^_______^

hmmm... I feel better oredi.

''nothing can make your day better only if you want to.''

created my own quoted. Copyright reserved.

12:45pm remember this moment.

you've overcome your problem, so now it's time for

APPROACH !!!
(close back door, open BIG FRONT DOOR WIDE WIDE)

P.S:many of you might not understand
about this post, but it's okay.

closed diary

2009-12-01T23:00:00.000-08:00

This Blog will be Abandon for awhile.

Please checked my updates at

http://www.twitter.com/shennie87

or my facebook.

THANK YOU VERY MUCH ♥

btw have a GREAT DECEMBER!

no need to complicate

2009-11-24T06:25:00.001-08:00

I'm a girl with lots of random craving; worst of all i must hv it right away. Yesterday I was holding on to my craving for ultra long hours. I couldn't stop thinking about it, which cause me another sleepless night. I only manage to go to bed near 5am. fucking hell hour.

Then, the moment i wake up i went straight down to my kitchen n took a package of curry maggie + egg & dumped it into the pot. ''no need to complicate''

you smell anything ?
.
.
.
.
.
.
this is it :)
<<<------------this is Super Tasty. simple, easy & most important satisfying. ^^ wriggle eye brows

what I'm trying to say is. a reli simple dish or meal can make me happy oredi :)
''no need to complicate''

freedom

2009-11-22T01:37:00.000-08:00

Freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeedommmmmmmmmmmmmmm =)

I finally got my official freedom............ hahaha
sounds like I'm having a divorce or break up? hahaha i kinda thought so too...
nah....................... of cos not.

the FREEDOM I'm claiming here is.....................
~ the power to determine action without restrain; of cos not any criminal act ~
~ the absence of or release from ties, obligations (assignments, presentation, exams)

Yayyyyyyyyyyy.... the feeling is indescribable within words....

but it is an AWESOME feeeeeeeeling !
~ i can now sleeeeep til noon; n not rush for any class.
hahahaha so coooooooooool.... ^^

Many ppl ask what am i gonna do since I'm done?
find art time job? hahaha NO !!!
or should i say my part time job currently would be to attend 'PARTIES'
with cool & fun people around ;) I'm Lovin it <3

Now onwards, I do not want to waste my time worrying about result,
or what so ever matters. the thing that only matters now is to Be/Feel HAPPY :)

I have wasted more than millions of hours worrying about 'issues'
now all i wanna do is to ENJOY.
In this holiday,
I really hope I could go traveling, visit places I've never been,
experience activities I never tried etc...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Yesterday night is certainly a night to remember.
it was like a night of Ecstasy
wooohoooooooooo
the first scene of my life being pulled up on the table
& to dance seductively with my girlfren *blush*
hahahaa but it was FUN hahaha

But i would say if without bunch of fun & great people around me
d night wouldn't be fun :D

hheehehe so happy. lets see some pictures

2 above is from poppy
the rest @ Bamboo ^^
Dai Soh' B'dae Celebration

:) great party & great people

2009-11-09T08:25:00.000-08:00

the long............. lost author is finally back

for........ probably few minutes =P

Just a brief updates.

Been crazily occupied with S-T-R-E-S-S

yes, i still do chill out, yamcha or clubbing at times

but but BUT

that's cos i needed to release tension

now i feel like karaoke pula.. .(gimme gimme mike)

hmm...ok back to the topic.

I still have 7days to go (suffer)

STRESS always make me FAT/EAT.

HATE it ! >.<'' btw i was suppose to start my revision after AOD-ing but then my headache got worst so i don't think there's any point if i force my eyeballs 0.O through those notes. then i decided to 'geh po' on my fren's blog. hahaha ended up at Xiaxue's blog (famous blogger from S'pore) came across a few latest post... & her post actually got me ENTERTAINED :D hahaha usually i just browse through as I'm not really that interested in ppl's personal business. However the post on ''photoshop contest'' is amazingly hilarious hahaahaa i laughed at almost every single edited pic. those participants are suppose to modified her 'hideous pic' into a 'leng lui' hahahaa turned out . . . . . . . . . . . BETAHAN check it out yourself if you're BORED/STRESS it really does work. ^^ THANK YOU for De-stressing abit... now, I'll do you a favour & publish your blog for you to gained more FANCY. ''http://xiaxue.blogspot.com/'' enjoy, have a great laugh & good night.

once in a blue moon

2009-10-21T01:20:00.000-07:00

I've decided to go healthy for a week :)
that's so rare right? I know... especially food hunter like me...
often having lots of random cravings....
which is seriously hard to resist all the temptation from the delicious food @ home/outside.

But anyhow trust me, I'm really trying very hard.
I've been replacing my usual heavy supper with Fruits & milk.
hahahaha proud of me? not yet..wait till i go through this 'pathetic' period.
then once again i can enjoy most of the yummylicious foods again.

my weight has always been an issue to me,
especially the Mariah arms & Beyonce thigh...
omg... it is really bothering me. >.<'' (emo)

look between this 2 pictures.
I'm sure everyone would want to see the one on the LEFT more than the one on right. right?

hopefully end of this week, I'll see some result. ^^

P/S: To all people who ever see this post,
please do not tempt/seduce me with foods.
for god sake help this chubby little chick
she needs to keep fit. =P

Stay tuned for the result.
& for ppl who support me, u may leave some motivating comments for me. hehez

Wo Cai Wo Cai Wo Cai Cai Cai

2009-10-17T23:26:00.001-07:00

Guess who is that?

who ever got it correct got price ^^ Muahaahaha

LG

2009-10-16T22:35:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

Life has been pleasant. Studies going smooth as there's no massive headaches yet. Been involved in a few challenging activities such as Rock Climbing, Go-Kart, Flying Kites & social drinking with friends. As for ♥, the ship has slowly begin to sail. Take one step at a time said Jordin Spark. Money wise I'm in deep shit... expenses have been really high. (myself, Dog, outing, random things etc...) I know I could easily sort this out if i could accept being with those rich guys who often tried to impress me with their loaded background/capability. I rather take my time to search &be with someone who is worth my quality time, who is able to makes me feel comfortable & love than someone who is rich & all but I am bored or uninterested in. Between, aiming to be with a sugar bf, that is just not my style/not me. (I am true to myself, I'm not blinded by their $$$) As often as most girls did in today's society, being materialistic, loving the $$$ & branded goods more than the man n all; which only mark down the foolishness in them. (as often as I'm disclose to these situation/ facts, it just caught my emotions on fire) sorry to say, ''I Do Look Down On You People who are actually pursuing to obtain such dream/path'' enough said.

After all, it is up to you to decide, you are always given a choice. ♥

Moto for life: Live life to the fullest, appreciate things you have especially your close ones & do not take things for granted.

♥ ~shennie~ ♥

10 random things i did

2009-10-15T01:53:00.000-07:00

#1 lunch with Jack @ Sushi Zamai
#2 bought a pink purse from Deeper & Harder
#3 skipped class (cos it's just boring 1hour clss)
#4 took pictures of dogs
#5 did holla-hoop for 30minutes at the same time singing with her Ipod.
#6 look at his picture & smile ^^
#7 checked the time* looking forward to meet him again. =P
#8 walk to night market alone & pick up fruits myself (brave) meanwhile reward herself with 1 stick of fried wan tan =P
#9 brainstorm what to write on her FB status -.-'' ( So wu liao)
#10 blogging about the 10 random things she did lo.

short updates

2009-10-11T09:13:00.001-07:00

been busy with loads of assignments & exams n little party at times. hehe
hectic schedules r slightly cleared but there's more coming up.
had great fun flying kites n delicious food last Thursday
after handing up assignments & presentation.
will be busy again with group discussion for campaign assignments
n preparation for Marketing test.
Besides,
I really really should start revising for the upcoming marketing test.
arghhh (someone pls motivate me)
oh ya btw i got also got a HD for my Professionalism Campaign Management assignment.
what a great shocking news to received :) Hooray (jumping happily) ^^

I am serious when i need to be serious.
but I also don't forget to party when it's time to relax.
that's the balance of my life =) Weeeee

& I just got back from PD dis evening, stayed at Eagle Ranch resort.
our group of 18 ppl... first time traveling with such a big group.
have great fun playing go-karts, enjoyed the speed on the track.
had some beers n snacks during chilling session with some frens in the cozy little resort.
pictures will most probably be uploaded in F.B.
Stay Tuned.

that's all for now. logging off =)

leaving my footstep before i go... in case you ppl forget me oredi =P

still awake

2009-10-05T14:05:00.001-07:00

arghhhhhhhhhhh

What am i doing here,

it's freaking 5am oredi,

& I still couldn't sleep zzZ

Worst still, i have a freaking 25slides presentation on later...

How how how........?

cannot sleep, beh kun, tak boleh tidur, sui bu zao, fan mm dou...

reli reli reli reli hou hou chammmmmmmmm r....

T_____________________________T

God do you hear me?

help me, give me some sleep...

I RELI NEED IT !!!

way back into LOVE

2009-10-04T02:55:00.000-07:00

an old song which reminds me
'it's really time to find a way back into love'

All I wanna do is to find a way back into ♥

A blast in BarSonic @ Zouk

2009-10-04T02:21:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a blast at BarSonic with Wayne n the gangs.

especially wit the DJ Blink & various DJ spinning awesome music

*Electro Hindie* is now my favourite song to dance & club

it makes me move it move it... i like to move it move it XD

I had so much fun dancing, drinking & meeting new frens ;)

It was really an amazing awesome few hours before we called it a night. =D

a few pictures taken on 3rd, Octorber, 09

trying out the tie to fit the attire

starter: Heineken Beer
Drinks for the night: Jugs of long Island + Beer

I, Kenny & Jack

Wayne & friends

May May

the 'twin' doing their butt shake dance ;)

I can't stop myself from saying 'WHAT AN AWESOME NIGHT'

Muaaaaack ^^

Let's forgive

2009-10-02T11:10:00.000-07:00

In this world, there's just too many things beyond our control, and for me I can't be having all my time wasted on hating this person or that person. So why not I open up my mind and learn to forgive. ''Forgive is not something we do for others but for ourselves to get well and move on.''

My point as stated in this video: When deep injury is done to us, we never recover until we forgive. However, forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future. ♥

& my forgiveness comes from love, if i do not have love i will not forgive.

Your truly,
Shennie ♥

2009-09-26T08:19:00.000-07:00

nothing much happened on friday acept rotting at home.

Morning was Karaoke session with boy, Aaron & Hua

2hours singing session was not enough at all.

but due to the stingy package Red box offered no choice lu.

Right after K singing, we head to e@curve for Movie

Catch 'A Perfect Gateway'

rating 5/10

enuf to pass lo. hahaz

Dinner had G'ma cooking & watched Astro beauty pageant 2009,

den yamcha around 930pm with Andy @ Sunwaymas

followed by a walk with Ginger nearby the park @ BU 12

cute ^^

taste good

sucky angel hair pasta

milk tea, ice lemon tea & coke

Ginger

~ me walking Ginger ~

# Andy & Ginger #

'V' dog lovers :)

The next dog's date will be dis coming weekend. ^^

Rocky Endurance

2009-09-24T16:48:00.000-07:00

Yahoooo, I finally did the long awaited activity ^^

met up with Philee for lunch & head to 5ft floor for Rock Climbing.

YES, I mentioned Rock Climbing,

no panic...yes most of the girls who hears that,

would either say you're crazy or... I'm not interested.

Oh well, Aries Baby love challenge.

(I would even consider Bungee Jump, Sky dive, Scuba dive etc)

Philee & I both(gals) born at the same day

24.03.1987 so coincident kan...

hehez, adding on to that,

there goes no excuses for not remembering our BIRTHDAY! haha

Based on my real life experience >.0

This activity is hell great of an achievement,

but you gotta be mentally strong to handle it,

because it just remind you to 'give up' every single sec...

no kidding, a very tough yet expensive activity.

But, I SWEAR I'm coming back for more.

AS mentioned before, I LOVE CHALLENGE, EXCITEMENT,

& not forgetting GOOD WORKOUT. ;)

Now, enjoy the pictures

put on the climbing shoe
& I'm all ready to go :)

(free trial on kids stone)

lolz check out the one behind.

first glance of the 'real' wall we both gonna climb.
* so freaking high * I swear d the height r at least 3floors of 1utama.

Challenger 1(Philee)
that guy was our Marshall also from KDU.lolx

see how high she went oredi?
look so easy huh,
wait til you try out yourself,
basically you gotta carry your own weight
not only with your leg pushing your body up but
your arms gotta be strong enuf to grip on the little stones
or else u'll fall all the way down.

haha this is so cute XD
she looks like a spider gal.

& she reaching the top (claps)

Let go time... (all the way back down)

Challenger 2(shennie)

pic2: u have no idea both my arms (struggling to the max)
wanted to give up oredi...
'

but thanks to Philee's constant encouragement
I'm moving with a funny posture. haha XD

YES, I can do it (self motivating)

few steps away...

continually struggling

2 more steps to the top

WOohooooooooo....
Everyone claps (well done) ^^

hahahaha see every single moments of obstacles faced
was captured by my camera phone. XD ( no fake)

Priceless experiences.

We was so proud of ourselves,
that we rewarded ourselves some fried snacks & bubble milk tea
:)

note: all pictures above was not photo shop nor edited,
pure master copy. ;)

~ *~ *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Poker face

2009-09-22T05:41:00.000-07:00

Can't read mind, Can't read mind, no you can't read my poker face :(
jeez... lost half a million already T^T
I don't seems to have any luck in Texas Holdem Poker...
even if i got a pocket A, or straight I Still can either lose to triple or one of a kind. :((
Donated 50k to Eric, & now i need it back. T^T
poor me... he won extra 20k of it.

on the other hand, Sunday was chilling at Library @e-Curve with Wayne & his gang,
happening sial... so crowded, all fully seated, no table...
gotta wait half an hour to get table n seats.
drank Hoegarden for the first time...
the glass so freaking cute..
Jumbo sia

first round, v ordered 10pints

second round another 5pints n other beer,

the live band, football cheers,
moved the crowd...everyone start singing along. =)
nice experience. wouldn't mind going back there again.
Then, Supper @ Tmn Paramount.

Now hope my luck gain back.
Poker ! Poker ! Poker face !!!

Raya Break

2009-09-20T02:03:00.000-07:00

Soft warm Taufufa =) my Whisky^^

Hello peeps, I'm currently blogging in my cozy little sofa right beside my Television. Just enjoyed 2 whole bowl of warm soft taufufa ♥ & tuna puff...now my stomach is feeling so warm n 'jelly' It seems like dis September is a raining season. Everyday, the sky just seems to be dark, cloudy & windy... & sometimes it even make the whole environment gloomy & lazy. While the whole Raya Break was like a silent break to me... nothing seems happening, did not really enjoy going out & was quite broke as well. Sigh =/ Only party once during Thursday when my fren Jon purposely came down to KL to party with me. =) Next, the forthcoming will be groups assignments, presentations & Campaign Test. I gotta start waking my ass n kick start my readings >.<''

& I'm here wishing all my Malay friends ... Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri !

Here's some pictures from Zouk:

>.<''...don't misunderstand his hand did not touch my boobs. Fuck You Sigh

Mr.Jon

Brownish Hair

2009-09-18T09:56:00.000-07:00

Woke up 930am to go down Kg Pandan for dye hair.

I was feeling so tired n sleepy from the late outing yesterday. =(

got kinda emo when Alvin missed the junction few time.

But my mood was easily retrieve when we finally reached there. ^^

met Yvonne's mom n explained to her what color result i wanted.

The process lasted about 3hours

n finally TADA =)

1st pic in saloon

Lastly, I just want to say I'm Happy With the Result.

Thank you Alvin for bringing me dere &
the professional & (Yvonne's mom) who did my hair.

Night was yamcha with K.Y at Yippee cup
had a random chat,
& suddenly I feel like decorating my car's front frame with 'Zebra Fur' =P
what do you all think ?

hehez. feel free to give comments.
whether design? color?pattern or wat so ever ;)

orite, I'm off to watch Astro Channel

blog not dead yet

2009-09-15T00:55:00.000-07:00

finally get some time to reactivate my blog.

P.S my blog is not dead yet !
Readers pls do not abandon this blog. Thank you!

I've been real busy these weeks.

However, finally schedule is cleared. =)

Weeez means Iwillbefree....but until when i don't know. lolx

So, people out there who wants to party, hang out or chill out

pls contact me yea!

my frens should have my number rite? hehez

Besides, my long wait postage have finally arrived,
but wat the hell... 3items are of wrong colors.
I called up, n guess wat she tell me.
'ohh cause oversea sent me this color'
'ooh cos i can't log in msn...streamyx problem blah blah'
what the hell la...I don't care, i'm thinking i pay for what i want,
in the end u give me something i don't want...
you tell me cannot refund.
Pisssed off...I'm not happy, not satisfied.
I won't be buying stuff from you anymore. (said to myself) T^T
Blog name: Vivishop.com

Hmph, right now m off to shower, need to cool down my fire. arghh

stress arr....

2009-09-08T11:22:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling the pain on my neck by constantly banding lower to read the context in my lappie. the pain behind my back... by constantly stretching out to scroll with the mouse. Reading this 8pages of PDF article is driving me crazy... n worsting it's only 1 reading(topic) @@'' how many more I need to go through to complete all readings... now my eyes are burning in Tears & sore .... how am i going to keep up my beauty skin if i would hv to go through all these sleepless nights. =(( HELP me r....

Scheduale for the week is fully-occupied.

-Tmr start writing my essay about 'Professionalism in relate to public relations'
-1pm meeting at college (prezie practice)
-thursday prezietation + report hand in
-essay need to be complete be4 sunday.
-sunday revision on campaign week1-6
-monday revision marketing week 1-8
-TUESDAY everything DUE

God bless me... peeps wish me many many many luck. Thank you!

2009-09-05T14:43:00.000-07:00

This upcoming post should be about my PD trip
but I'll postpone it to my next post.

Just got back from the BU birthday bash at Duta Vista.
A total of 5 shared a birthday party together.

The Party was filled with alcohols, junks, fast food, mixer & people.

We played devil deck but it was rather slow, Zzz almost felt asleep.
i hardly get the chance to drink =P no luck haha
den a few of us changed to Big & Small.
out of 10rounds i only drank once.
I helped both CW & LW a few shots
but somehow I'm still feeling fine. still sober

Took a rest, & continued to drink with a new fren - Mayo.
hahaha he gg donwan drink with me...
kept saying he drunk d... bullS**t la.. drinker la he.
see the way he pour the liquor oso can faint. hahaha

anyway got quite emo at 1 time.
got a total ignorance from him.
but it's all good now.
I'm all clear with my vision & decision now.
I can move on deee...

I tell myself, tonight will be the last night tearing for him!

Thank you for all you've done.

byebye!

She is back for good. =)

2009-09-01T22:21:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I was forcing myself to the limit to finished off the part I'm in charge in. =/ wtf i wrote like 800 over words n today after the group meeting I'm only allowed to have like max 350w ? meaning to say I would have to cut off (details) and rewrite a briefer sentences for all. I suck at introduction... issh i rather write content. hmm

Besides, tmr I will be off to PD with Neik and gang... hopefully i could refresh my instrusive mind when I'm out of town and come back with a chrystal peaceful clean mind. =))

Beach Here I come ! =)

Bye bye!

2009-08-30T04:54:00.000-07:00

Woke up super early am, yet suffering hang over from yesterday's very last minute clubbing & drinking plan. Moreover, I'm having period, stomach pain & dizziness etc. (Just imagine the pain) Did not do much at all today. Tried to do some research for Marketing assignments but did not really have the spirit at all. Sigh. I got 2more days before due. N yet, I haven't get started. A total zero still. I need to put in more effort la. Since today is N.Day (escuses) I doubt I can do anything, I'll just procrastinate for the very last time. Tmr am, I'll try accomplish most of it. Lets pray k. Trust me. :) Besides, i had unhealthy food again. :( MCD Fried Chicken. I wonder When? and How? only i will become more health conscious leh =((

First i need to cut-down on drinking. Hmph =<

I wish there's a HELP button for every needs, so that i can call for help for when I'm facing difficulties.

hang over blogging

2009-08-29T18:49:00.000-07:00

3 days in a row clubbing. Zzz
which means I've been drinking 3days continuously. =(

27 August 09 - Thursday
MOS

28 August 09 - Friday
Bamboo

* 29 August 09 - Saturday
Poppy

Pictures available:

Jeff & his gf

me & Cassie

Suree & I

U-fai & mua

Hurt my ankle when i was walking tipsily towards my door (FML)

T^T

P/S: Thank you ppl who took care of me last nite, you know who you are.

28.8.09

2009-08-29T05:14:00.000-07:00

no pictures taken for the night. All i remembered was we ordered 5 buckets of Tiger beers since the beers was really cheap. We started playing some drinking games from 5 10, card games to dice games. We were all quite tipsy before I could get my friend to bring us in Bamboo. Joined Jackson & gang n had a crazy fun night. =D

Thank you friends, you guys rocks! XD

random last minute

2009-08-28T00:28:00.000-07:00

A night with FUN; no boundaries = )

-27 Aug 2009- MOS

First and Last experience in MAISON

2009-08-25T03:04:00.000-07:00

attire for the night

Saturday night at Maison with Lting rmb?
haha as expected no 'potential' or so called 'lookable' ones, in short no leng chai la.. XD

The moment I entered Maison, it gaves me an impression 'sienz', no doubt open bottles was way cheaper if was to compare to clubs like Quarto, Zouk, Poppy. But frankly speaking, I would rather be clubbing at Sanctuary. To be honest, if you really one me to grade Maison, I would say 'lousy atmosphere', lousy music & lousy ppl. Music sux cos they actually played Poker face over 5times if i didn't lost count n for the rest i didn't want to bother. People sux? don't get me wrong, my friends are wonderful but those random people in club are just way to 'Kanasai'. Kena 'Chau sui' to the max.... N what's even pissed is tht freaky horny guy in 'white polo T' tried taking advantages of all of us girls all at once. Fuck off wei... Lting, got pissed n told him off... but we all 'innocent' wan kena like hell... avoid him to the max.... Cheoktho was the worst.. she got licked by that guy someore. Ewwwwwwww x10000000 if he were to do that to me... I'll kick his d**k off man. grossed >.<'' Anyhow, that night was the most soberest night ever in club. Didn't really drink much maybe cos been puking way too much tht night at Poppy. But the best thing that night was having some close friends around, v had mini fun by self-entertaining each other. Camwhore, dancing, drinking etc... hehehe not too bad after all... but the last part got abit tension... the guys almost fight... most of the guys we went with got drunk. & the one sitting next to me in car was obviously way too drunk... hahaha oh well it's just another clubbing night. Now, let the pictures do the talking =)

the 'couple' shots XD

~ Partayyyyyyyyyyy time ...

3 of us... Jaclyn, CT & shennie ^^

here comes the group shots

only the girls

n here comes the group pictures ^^

A little 'disturbing' graphic ... XD

When everyone slows down....

Oh.. Jaclyn is stuck with Kim

me & Josh

both look 'high' 0.o

2009-08-24T01:31:00.000-07:00

As usual I woke up in a tiring mode to prepare for class at 10am. This happens really frequent as I do not get proper sleep at nite. Recently, my insomnia had went worst. Class finished around 12pm, and i offered Jazz a ride to college as she had no transport. So, we took a quick lunch at ss2 -Penang Cafe. After dropping her at college, just when i was about to reach ss2 Watson to get a make up remover, this is when i receive the hectic headaches. First, I got a message from Chloe saying tht our group of 4 are to present two chapters tmr. (monolog) I'm like what the f**k, I tot we just presentated last week. Then the next minutes, I got a call from MY telling me about the presentation for tmr. omg.. classes just finished about an hour ago, brain also not yet calm down... pop! another duty had occurred. She said that, due to the amount of ppl in class, we are to be prepared to do more in every coming weeks due to the chaotic mass of chapters. Zzzz Whats even more frightful was that MY asked me to complete it all and present it all by myself. I'm like WHY? She said, cos the other 2mates has got to prepare for their other sub's presentation dis coming Thursday. So if we can do...help them... I'm like we also wat...tmr v also need to come out with answers for our presentation and report for the Marketing subject as well. Someore the readings is not brief u know, it has like a total 25pages, and now i don't even know how am i gonna do the ppt. Zzzz Suddenly I felt so much pressure coming beforehand. Poooooooh... even tonight's yamcha session had to cancel for preparing my presentations n all....

Tonight's gonna be another long long night........

WISH ME many many LUCK !

torturing SUNday

2009-08-23T06:06:00.000-07:00

It started with a bad headache after lunch with Avk & Jf @ OU again.
This week was my fourth time in 1u. Zzz (sienz sia)

The hot sunny temperature had increases an attack to my headache.
Causes me difficulties to nap.
Due to the insufficiency of rest, it had lead my emotions towards the stage of 'moody'

Then, my mood went worse after dinner.
I started to feel gloomy, depressed & lonely.
As I felt like I have nobody but myself.
Feeling lonely and all alone, having no1 to talk to and care about. =(
I was feeeeling so lost & confused.
all my emotions was in messed.
I cried & cried over the same old issue that had been bothering me.
I text and chat with my girl friends for advice & motivation.
& finally, I got stable down.

I had an entire Pringles by myself.
Before I could start doing my assignments.
At last, I completed my tutorial assignments for week4.

Jeez... I still have a lot coming in this week,
especially on the readings for both PR n Bus subjects...
+ report writing & presentations
yet all i haven't touched at all.
really GG.com.my @@''
called me crazy!

Tmr, I will be having class @ 10am...
I just hope that tonight I'll be able to sleep tight
& have some good energies for the upcoming day.

Lets pray for a BETTER TOMORROW!

Cheers,

Food & Outings

2009-08-22T03:44:00.000-07:00

Finally, get to catch up with Juney & Simone. :)
it's been awhile since everyone have take their own path.
Doing their own things be it work or otherwise.
We had lunch @ New York Deli since they both really wanted to try it out.
the food n price was fair.
so any of you can go ahead n try out if u like chillies but claimed expensive.

Again, failed to window shop..
I got myself a pair of earrings from Diva & undergarments from Mark & Spencer
(just couldn't wait for Sales anymore, which is also d reason why I'm alwaz BROKE)
T^T

the Birthday dinner outing had to canceled.
Cos my g.ma scolded n claimed i never eat her food 'every' Saturday.
such a strong word she used.
So i had to dine at home. Ba Kut Teh..slurp yummy
So here i wish you 'Happy Birthday in advance' Kher Li

Beside, tonight will follow Lting go Maison.
She insist she got lots of 'qualities' frens to intro to me...
haha but i doubt there r any high qualities or potential ones.
haha cos for the record, she let me down too many times. =P
but its all fine la.. just want to make more frens
no need to go more than that.

Till then, will update about the night out in the next post.
If only there's something fun that need to be mentioned. XD

Last question in mind,

WHAT SHOULD I WEAR?

The Call

2009-08-20T07:17:00.000-07:00

Today i did something really really bad. I randomly skipped class. I called it 'random' because I wasn't sick or having what so ever unexplainable reason but merely lazy. >.<'' It's really a bad thing to do. I told my self in the very beginning of this semester that i wouldn't not skipped any classes at all. But today, I break my own promise. Arghh... Secondly, today was a rather hot sunny day, I wanted to chill out but ended up went groceries shopping & pack random foods and snacks back home. This is one of the activities i enjoyed during boredom. I would pack any random foods and snacks i like and camp in my room with movies in my external hard disc. Is that a good or bad idea? hahaha :P

Thirdly, I think I'm getting over 'him' like really soon. He texted me and asked me to call, so i did, he asked me whether i want to hang out, i replied 'No' as today is July 1st in Chinese Calender which mean (Ghost festival) someore every year sure got many ppl die. Oh well im not too sure, but i don't want to risk my life right so i rejected la.. n for the record it's my first time rejecting him okay. I mean if he really pujuk me abit, i might 'sam yu' and say okie right, but what the hell he just said 'nvm' den i asked la so where you going, again he replied 'nvm' den close my fon. Wtf wei... seriously. nvm lor. But if for me last time, i would definitely call back as i'll get worried and all or get pissed n send him a message. But just now, I didn't not borther to do anything at all. am i getting over him ? I also kept reminding myself that he is just an ordinary fren now, I no longer need to give him the special treatment I used to gave him be4 like being my 1st piriority right? I don't think I'm being a bad person just cos i said 'NO' to him right? Please la.. like my fren's quote ''you didn't wanna say goodbye, but u never really seems like you wanna try? If you need me then tell me why.''

Forth, Mummy called (all the way from Port Moresby asking how am I n stuff? I replied her I'm alright n told her not to worried cos i did advice bro to study every nite. But from then, I starts to feel guilty, cos me myself not only skipped class today but also never study at all. So I'm setting this as a reminder ''I need to read minimum 1lecture notes tonight''.

At the very least, I still have my family and friends support. =) which i would learn to appreciate even more now.

THANK YOU ALL!

Karaoke Emo Chill Out

2009-08-19T21:22:00.000-07:00

Tuesday night was karaoke emo session with 2 monkeys (Avk, Jf)

We started with a buffet feast and had Linkin Park's New Devide as our appetizer, Bleeding Love, Dead and Gone etc... Main course we had, English Song, Leanne Rimes, Leona Lewis etc, Malay songs we sang Mungkin nanti, Japanese emo songs from Utada- First Love to random chinese emo songs from Jay Chow, Lee Sheng Jie, S.H.E, Rainie Yang etc... n multiple dessert such as Black eye Peas for Boom Boom Pow, Justin Timberlake - Sexy Back, Spice Girl - 2become1, The Pussy Cat Dolls - Don't Cha and even the 'God' Michael Jackson's beat it, you're not alone etc... hahaha (it's freaking funny during our singing session; even the waitor 'betahan' us, come in and say the mike need to change bacteri) XD hahahaa

Now, are you ready for some laughter... here's some fun to share with you guys XD

you gotta twist your head abit though... cos it's presented side way.

First Video: You're not alone by Alvinkei

Second video: Beat it by 'Asian God' aka AVK... hahaha

Weekends

2009-08-15T22:14:00.000-07:00

Weekends was occupied with late outings & assignments accept Sunday. Thursday night at Zouk. Friday nite chilling at Sanctuary with JF & AVK. Saturday night watched District 9, supper at Ming Tien and second round at Look Out Point with Gary. I'm finally done with the tutorial assignments of the week. Got 1more chapter to study tonight for tmr discussion of the coming presentation. Zzz
fell asleep with the fightening thunder and the gloomy skies. I felt so random somehow I'll just put up every picture taken dis weekend k :)

Thursday 4play Night @ Zouk

Delicious Hi-Tea

Friday @ Sanctuary

Saturday Night @ Look Out Point

Negative

2009-08-12T04:48:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling tired.I think is due to the lack of sleep and rest. I'm also having headaches n dizziness. Am I going out too often, I figured. But I think it's not the issue. Thinking too much? Probably Yes. Hrmm, I've got 2 tutorial assignment to finished before the week end. =( One was supposed to be done by now. But I haven't yet touch at all. Procrastinating at my very best. (Slap myself) Tonight I will finished it up before 12am. (Promise) I took a Panadol Actifast, I hope it could help a little. Recently, I heard a rumours from a fren saying that KDU, there's people who got infected by H1N1. >.<'' Walaoeh...meaning I'm studying in a dangerous enviroment. hrmm btw, I'm feeling so moody today, migraines attack, stress, tired, alone(miss him) wtf...I know I shouldn't be. T^T I need to distract myself from thinking. I ate chunks of chocolate biscuit but nothing helps. =X

How come one moment I felt so bright, the next minute i felt like suicidal? Arghhhhhh HELP ME!

Tonight I find myself kneeling by the bed to pray
I haven't done this in awhile, So i don't know what to say.
Lord, i feel so small sometimes in this big old place.
Yea, I know there's more important things, but
Don't forget to remember me.

A friend send me this to cheer me up. Thank You!

Cheery Day :)

2009-08-11T01:11:00.001-07:00

Tuesday wasn't as bad as I taught it would be or at least for today. I went to college early to attend the Marketing class I taught we were having but unfortunitely the program leader Ms Maha, have not informed us nor send the latest time table which cause all of us to missed the class yesterday. And instead of having this subject at early 8am, it was occupied at 12-2pm. Zzz KDU always having this managment issue... so inefficiency! So, now my college day would be Monday, Tuesday & Thursday. Hopefully no more changes ^^

However I was struggling during the morning class, cos i was feeling fairly tired & sleepy from last night hang out & late sleep. My first time & day attending this marketing class. At first, i was afraid that the lecturer would be some incapable person. But it turn out, that he was really funny, interesting & entertaining. He was outspoken, linking it close to our ambiance which caught the attention of the entire class. =)

Next, we were asked to form a group & come up with a group name. Without realizing it, our group name happens to be W.T.F. How shall we pronounce it? alphabet by alphabet or just say WTF in 1 go? hahaha Also, today I made 3 new friends in college who were in their yr1 sem2. Bob, Joanna & Wil. I also met 1 of my old school friend Hui Li if it was not spelled wrong. She walks in and put her beg right next to me and i was like are u hui li? then she was like wat u doing here... lol I'm doing mass comm la yr 3 final sem. Then, suddenly her fren talk to her n she walked away. Now i say WTF! lolx

Btw,Lunch with Alvin at Piccadilly, cos he was playing dota at CC nearby KDU. & I finally registered my subjects. Hoorah... I'm only taking 2 subjects in this final sem which was also the only subjects i left for my degree course. 1. Campaign Management 2. Principles of Marketing. =) tmr I shall go pay the college fees. & I am actually looking forwards to Mr. Alwyn's class. hahaha

FINALLY, an awaiting good news has result, everyone cheers with me.... I finally got my TVC results. & I got a D, a Distinction =D WooHooooo

Tonight I'm going to watch ''ON HIS MAJESTY'S SECRET SERVICE'' casting Louise Koo, Barbie Hsu, Sandra Ng etc.

till then, byebye =D

balance

2009-08-10T01:02:00.000-07:00

KDU guards got issue. Don't know how to manipulate the terms & condition based on situation to suits one purpose or need.
Firefox is being a BITCH. Hang more than 5times today.
Heavy rain = tortoise network, frightful thunder =/
feeling super air-condition cold, wanted to munch on something salty & steamy hot
but But BUT fattening =X

However, looking at the not so saddening side,
I've got my fav Vanilla Cream Frap as my accompany.
Also I get to listen to awesome music with my ipod - earphone =)

So, y not I just be grateful for the pleasant option I have. ^^

''give & take''

Poppy

2009-08-09T05:11:00.000-07:00

There isn't actually much to blog about when it comes to clubbing, cos it suppose to be more pictures than words. But I'm gonna try my best k =)

There was me, Bro, Aaron, Leon, Suki, Alice, Bob, Mostafa and Farnaz

We meet at the mamak near Poppy. Did some mini intro of each other n chill out before we went in.

We went to the entrance n ask about the bottle pricing n all. We also wanted to get a table on the ground floor but unfortunately there aren't any table available, so we had to take the table upstairs. (wasn't really happy but no choice)

9 of us shared 2bottles of Chivas. I made the rules where everyone gotta cheers n bottom's up for our first glass. So we all DID. However, i think i bottom's up every single glass I cheers with people. LOL

For my very last conscious moment I remembered, it was around 130am. N there goes gg.com.ss2.my. This is super early wei, for the first time in poppy, I've not step down to the dance floor for the whole nite. =( I remembered Eric helped me to the toilet as I couldn't walk straight and after I'm back, I sat on the sofa slanting head facing the sofa holder. I was feeling super dizzy n uncomfortable. My stomach don't feel really well... I started having all the nasty salty feelings in my tongue n saliva. Then, I started to puke... I couldn't puke all at once... i dono y...it's was really suffering ... therefore I puke a few times... n dono since when... I lost myself, I went unconscious. died. lolx

During blurry mode, I saw my friends all enjoying in the dance floor, music was effing loud, everyone was like cheering for them... but I have no strength to stand up for it anymore.
This is what happen when you get wasted. @@''

However, over all it was a fun, enjoyable nite. At the very least, my friends seems really enjoying themselves in the dance floor. :D

The night was suppose to meet up with Alvinkei in the club, but it was so hard to meet.

ended up we only bumped into each other at the place we parked.

It was rather a blurry image, i couldn't walk a straight line... but i still manage to recognize Yvonne ;) i remember I said something like 'so pretty' . lolx

Reached home, took off my heels, walk to the sofa, wanted to lie down but 1sec after i lied down, I ran out to the door step... n puke on the carpet -.-'' sorry ''kakak''.

& this morning I woke up having hang over... stomach feeling weird. @~@

Next time, I'm not gonna get wasted so quickly. If not I'm gonna missed out all the fun =X

P/S: Thank you Eric & Aaron for taking care of me.

This is some of the pictures taken that night when I'm still active :P I'm sure there's some sickening pictures of me taken when I'm gone. =/

the cousinz =)

the buddies

the crazy ones

the sociable

the housemates

us with the emo look.

The guys

The girls

a random shots. lolx

Bitter truth

2009-08-09T03:04:00.000-07:00

~ post of 6.8.09 ~

He finally called. But it seems like there's nothing much that we could talked about.

Silence speak for most of the time.

This time, I know what my hearts feels and wants.

No matter how truly I feel for him, loved him... I have no more guts to continue this relationship/ the life time journey with him. (y life time? cos I felt so, I taught he was the one & he will be the one, but unfortunately hopes & dreams are gone)

There's no regrets for me, I've did my best.

frankly, all I ever wanted from him was not any physical material like Gucci, LV, Versace etc but the simplest comfort material which is his ATTENTION. But sadly, he couldn't gave me.

Speaking from this 3years experiences, I really do not want to place any blamed or responsible towards any side.

However, like I've mentioned in my previous blog. We just do not meant to be with each other.

It has reached the final stage, impossible for us to continue nor further our r'ship.

Even if we forces 'it' again, continue trying our best, it would never deliver as in we would not truly be happy, not with the relationship or each other. (I'm so fed up with arguments, confronting etc) any disagreement, dissatisfaction was mentioned before, all this while, along this 3 years relationship & still the improvement wasn't enough.) So it's time WE STOP & THINK!

What you seek in a relationship was very different from mine. However, I tried, u tried. But still, we failed.

In simple, you love routine, repetition, simple life, usual friends etc.

For me, I hate routine, I hate repetition every now n den. I tried to adapted n cope when I'm with you. But it was way over my limit. I love to try new stuff, I love interesting, I love hanging out, meet new friends, have new experiences etc.

Allow me to say, I have 1regrat this year. It was my birthday. I still remember that day, we both wasn't in good shape as in not a good day for both of us. We spent an hour tgt at Secret Recipe, n I knew u reli wanted to drink if you still rmb, So i told you i was tired, I'll go home n u could go find ur frens n hang out n drink. Seriously I mean it. But you lied, you said u weren't in the mood to drink n all... but i knew it was a lie so i did not question u. However late nite u called n confessed ur lie. I'm glad u're being honest. But refering to the regrats I'm stating here is not al these... It's my birthday for god sake, can you at least like make it up to me the next meet up. Like for my belated birthday celebration? There's no need to be grand, no need to dine good, just as simplest as buying me a piece of CAKE, DONUT or a PIE with a candle on it so that i could at least make a WISH. No, u can't...I even told you straight forwardely... But u ignore me. Saying
no need cake blah blah blah... okie it meant noting to u.. but it meant something to me. At the vey least, you should respect me rite?

Also, u told me not to compare u with others, so i do what u say. But eventually you always compare me with others, to be specific body shape. Sound familiar? Yes I'm sure u do.

Speaking from the bottom of my heart, I really really really do want to owned the perfect body shape u wanted me to have, but also speaking honestly I could never have the perfect body shape u wanted me to have. Sound disappointing? Yes. I AM TOO. BUT that's the truth.

I really do not mind u calling me Fat, asking me to diet loose weight, but bare in mind that
I do mind when u compare me to ur fren or so called 'kai mui' Sharon Chew. Not one time, many many times u did that to me. it's hurts right at my heart.

Furthermore, each and every time when we argue about things I like and don't. You Said: ''I can't be the guy u want me to be and will never be'' you also said: you are not a guy who would waste a minute or two to make plans or figuring how to make me happy. My hearts hurts, burned, felt torture, cried n shuts every single time u say that.

I also questioned myself for why am i still here, if he is not the one for me? Many times, I asked this question to myself, my heart tells me 'cos u loved him'.

However, he is not to be blamed for all this from now, cos he is just being honest, being himself telling me who he really are. Thank You for your consistence truthful answer, you woke me up like finally. Now I truly know what I want and What type of relationship I want to be in & also finally understand n see the pictures for when we last argued n u not bother.

Therefore, in this stage i would not hold on to this relationship anymore, not you not us.

This is a tough decision I've made. I think about it not only twice before deciding but numerous time in this cold week.

I figured, you've sense wht i mean, and you also accept it. When u sent me the message ''Sorry, I love you.. bye''

Yes, I teared again... but I accepted it. I feel the same for you... but that's final.

This is definitely hard for me & for you, but eventually we have to go through this.

At the very least, we would not get hurt by each others mistake or dislike in future anymore.

Lastly, all the best in everything you do. Take Care!

~ thank you for making this video ~ it does means something to me.

Back to College

2009-08-09T02:44:00.000-07:00

Week 1 of my final semester,

Woohoo in a way but arghh in another.

Good thing I'll be officially holding the degree cert; I'm no longer a 'student'

Anyway, this semester I'll be just taking 2subjects, 1 core left n 1 elective.

Some of you might wonder why am i taking two sub n so? (u may ask me personally n I'll explain to u)

The subjects I'm taking I haven't yet confirm as this coming week I'll be attending this business subject to see how challenging it is. whether i can cope or not. Cos I really really don't want to take GLOBAL MEDIA INDUSTRIES.

First weeks was nothing much but a brief introduction and course outline however, the tutorial started(supposedly week2) but due to hardworking lectures no choice la.

Btw tomorrow, 10th Aug, Monday, Murdoch site will upload the result of my previous sem, the TVC result that haven't yet update will be release. *worried* But i think i can sure pass. =)

MUST HAVE FAITH!

Wish me luck buddies =)

Happiness or Success

2009-08-09T01:39:00.001-07:00

Happiness = Success ? or (Vice- Verse)

Talking about Happiness and Success, there is certainly a inter-connection btw them.

For example: people who have a comfortable income, or high status in society are usually happiest.

But which one come first, happiness or success ?

There's almost an unwritten assumption that it is primarily success that lead to happiness.

But whether precise or not, it depends on individual, it's very subjective.

Rather People often just talk about how success can lead to happiness like the example above.

However, I am going to talk about how happiness can actually lead to success.

It is often easily said: thinking positive > positive mood = Happiness :D

But it was always easier speak than act.

Besides, if u think that success mainly leads to happiness,

then you are more motivated to focus on success to the exclusion of happiness right now.

Assuming that happiness will naturally flow from success when we obtain it.

I know some people who think exactly this way. ''Success leads to happiness.'' , ''if you're rich, you'll be happy'', ''if you're rich, you'll have girls'' lolx thts an extra but truly people think this way.... how ironic.

I'm not saying it's wrong, however I agree to some level. Like when your pocket is loaded, you'll definitely feel more positive, rich n proud. & could lead to happiness?

Some people might even say: ''when you have money, speak also speak louder''. Yes totally agree or rather ''money makes the world goes round''.

Yes, I still agrees with you. Money can almost buy anything in the world.

But certainly not LOVE nor TRUE HAPPINESS.

Alrite, what if it could buy love n happiness but how long will these last from success/power/money?

1week?1month?1 year?or if you're luckier about 3-5year? But definitely not for your entire life.

#1 money flows quick
#2 spending money like water gets you addicted. When you're used to it. You either don feel the excitement of spending it anymore or you might just ruined ur life by the lifestyle.
#3 Can money really but True Happiness? getting materialistic girls definitely. But r u truly happy?

Buying LOVE & HAPPINESS with MONEY ?

IF your answer is yes, congratulation. You can start focusing on towards your successful journey. While for happiness you can forget about achieving it. Because money can definitely buy anything but never TRUE LOVE or HAPPINESS. Even if it does, it will only be temporary.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining nor trying to offend any parties but just expressing what i feel. (that's y i blog)

I've been through quite some experience with that, especially in a relationship when your partner taught that saving all the money up for future n not concern about the presence is okay. In another word, there is no process of enjoy but only in the end. I would also like to question, how many of us would actually know how long we can live up to? or how many of you can really see fortune? Otherwise, why hesitate so much when you can have a life right in front of you? I'm not saying saving is bad, or spending is good. but as long as u spend wisely n not over spending i don't see WHY NOT. Agree? Yes/No?

Alright, it's beginning to get draggy, so I'll just stop writing here. I hope We all know what we want in life n pursue towards it.

Let us all rise and smile, be grateful for the things we have, learn to appreciate while it's still here, let go of the past and look back once awhile for learning your lesson n continue moving on towards your dream/success.